December 2008
49 posts
so good
Nature’s first green is gold, Her hardest hue to hold. Her early leafs a flower; But only so an hour. Then leaf subsides to leaf. So Eden sank to grief, So dawn goes down to day. Nothing gold can stay
Oldies
I found my old enV haha like my second phone in my whole life and wow I found so many priceless pics……….some real stupid shit haha. A lot of eli shit……a lot of Grams before it was out of control and just girls awith a few good dudes…..a picture of zane plain baesball and barry wearing my pajammas hahahahahah yesssssss…. i just sat there with my mouth open...
:(
Aww my doggies leg is broke haha actually idk that really but shes hobbleing around and to make me feel worse today Oprah’s whole show today was about rescueing animals and puppy mills……..so fucked. Made me wanna become a heardcore animal rights activist…..just think about all the dogs shot for no reason….someone needs to be there voice…so why not me ha
Good lord
Aww life and the past………..My ex is in the process of breaking up with his latest girlfriend and since I am home and in the area I’ve got wind of it and hate that I even know about that or what is going on there. It just makes me pissed off that, you were oh so madly in love with that girl and she was so perfect and you found your true love but now you are just blowing her...
:(
ughhh
things are getting complicated
i wanna go back to school
now.
the end,
Christmas
time was fun despite stuffing myself every single day and gaining 20 pounds in a 2 week time period haha…. My goals for the new year is do good at school, get a part-time job, save my money for tats and a new car, and get hott for my sister’s wedding…….
Other than that everything is going good….Excited to get back to school, a lot of good shows coming up I am pumped...
Bummin'
I’m bumming…… Everyone from here is in Erie or Pittsburgh for school and I’m at good ole Clarion….I met some awesome people their who will remain in my life forever but still sometimes I get bummed thinking about how different my life could be right now…. maybe I’d be happier, maybe I’d be the same Lisa though still making the same mistakes with the...
“Going to church no more makes you a Christian than standing in a garage makes...”
– Garrison Keillor
If you don’t listen to or read Garrison Keillor, then you should.
(via antpants)
“And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that...”
– Mayday Parade - Miserable At Best
Today
was sweet……..shopped, my sister came home, and I got to see the ole pals. Couldn’t ask for much more….or at least thats what I tell myself. Ughh… idk
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Gossip Girl
Alright. Every monday night while no one is around i tune in and watch Gossip Girls…. I am a fashion hog and the drama is amazing haha… I am in love with Chuck Bass the bad guy who is such a narcissist haha i love that show so much and idc who judges me for it. ”Only masochist could love a narcissist” so true….so true.
I've jumped on
the bandwagon and I finally love city and colour…..
I never sat down and gave him a chance and now I am in love haha…. I want some man to serenade me with sweet jams!!
“When was it that you sold your life or wasted Every bite of that small slice you...”
– ALKALINE TRIO - MR. CHAINSAW
Bahumbug
My mom is downstairs baking cookies and I am up in my bed still……. Getting older sucks especially around the holidays and you realize how things change. I remember going to my Grandma Elouise’s and their being a packed housefull of relatives…..
The people pass away, relationships changed, people become estranged and now it’s just christmas at our house with just my...
Ehh
I added a comment option to my page now……. I will probably regret it haha but in that case I can always just delete it out. Half the reason I liked tumblr is because I can just blurt out the most random shit and not worry about other people lurking and being pissed over it haha…….. mainly though this page is just filled with my thoughts, ideas, stuff like that, nothing...
“This time I’m putting my foot straight through the floor.
You wont be walking...”
– A Day To Remember - Casablanca Sucked Anyway
I wasn't going to
Alright I can’t stay strong. My head is a mess right now. I just am no good with dudes or relationships……It is stressing me out to know there are dudes out there who like me and I know my heart is just too dead to care. I just can’t. I just feel bad because I know I wanna hang out but just right now in my life, is not a good time to all the sudden take up a new...
No matter what
people say about Bayside or alkaline trio selling out or whatever………..i will always love those 2 bands….they were the soundtrack to my growing up and represent more then just good music to me………so what’s the point of this??? Time to get an Alky tat lol…………. i have been tossing around what to get next and this is all my ideas...
“We can live with our mistakes.
All my friends are going out tonight.
And I...”
– The Lawrence Arms - Great Lakes/great Escapes Lyrics
:)
I pounded ice off the sidewalk for about a halfy and then quit because I’m pretty sure I broke my neck hahaha……… shoot!! Any who I feel good right now like I’m earning my free card into heaven because I keep cleaning out all my drawers and giving stuff to goodwill…. Some kids in McKean county will be flossin’ all cuz of me……… It almost...
Wow
I didn’t see this one coming. Caught up with an old “friend” today and I’m feeling good about it, puts me in a real positive mood that maybe everything does eventually work itself out…..idk, we can only hope hah I hope I don’t end up eating my words on this one…..
“so let go
and move on
we’re strangers
we’re not friends
i hate...”
– Tegan and Sara
Blahh break
I just woke up and it is past noon. I just want to be back at school but have my family come with haha that would be the perfect situation………….. right now I just have nothing to do and no where to go and it sucks haha someone kill me
I lied
I can’t save money I need some new tats now!!!
left arm first! I’m just bummed I’ll probably hafta wait till I get back to school….I don’t have a connection with the dude who did my other tat haha so I am open to finding someone sweet who will be my pal and hook me up all the time baha
:)
“I can’t confront you, I never could do…
That which might hurt you....”
– Weezer
I'm strugglin
It’s true.. so many people have told me this but it took a professional to just say…..you know what, you can try to smooth things over but if it doesn’t work just forget them and move on from it.
I always think I can save a person…. wether it be a dude smokin’ too much and getting in trouble all the time, I just always try to reach out and be like “look, i care...
:( bleh
Today is so boring and cold :( After months of doing what I want and then coming home to this hah well it sucks………I just want to go do what I want. I got to put all my other things on hold and focus on paying for a car, because I gotta get a car more then anything. I am independent in every other aspect of my life but that……Ughhhhhhh money i hate you!!!
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It's sad....
coming home to nothing… other than my family and my dog. This just isn’t where I belong, no one holding me here and no memories worth thinking about and getting upset over. It’s over now. I’m replaceable. I’m nothingness.
“This body’s already aging…. these nights are already long, and if I...”
– Circa Survive
Life.
Maybe I’m not as well off as I imagined. I am sick of paying for all the things I’ve done wrong….. Seems like I am the black sheep of the group still, and I don’t know what more to do… It’s hard to be partial friends with people. To hang out with them and then know as soon as they leave they are on their way to talk about everything they just did with me to...
Blahh
I just woke up and it is 2 in the afternoon…… The rain is falling along with my serotonin levels haha…. Nothing good will come of today, I can feel it already.
Time
I can never get enough of time…. the whole concept and notion of time………… How long I’ve been here…. How long WILL I be here… How it seems to move so slow when I am struggling and so fast when I’m enjoying myself… How I can stare into the lights of my Christmas Tree and feel like I’ve been gone for hours of memories but it’s...
“Pretend its not forever
Ill pull myself together
Ill say that ill forget her...”
– Silverstein
Love
I want love to come find me and slap me in the face.
Everyone in my life right now has big flaws, major strings attached, or a history…..I just want a fresh start with someone all my own… Someone no one around me has been with, someone who is going somewhere, someone who knows my flaws and is still interested.
I can’t believe I’m writing all this out haha I’m that...
“And though it kills me to know
That when we are through
You go to your real...”
– Noah and the Whale (Second Lover)
The First
Well I don’t know if I will keep up with this or not but I feel like it is really important to write stuff down….because awhile from now you can look back in disbeilef that your life has improved or turned to shit haha.